It is best to start my testimony with some history: I was not born a Christian. I did not attend church growing up and by the time I was a teenager I had come to the conclusion that religion was a dying fad and that science had virtually killed it. I was confident in evolution, the big bang and all the answers that modern science had provided. To me the stories in the bible were just that; stories. Jesus was just a man who was made up and written about in a book.
So how did all this change? You can read the history of where I came from on my About Me page but in summary, when I moved to Swindon as a student to work I met some Christians who were not at all what I expected. In my mind Christians sit in pews in a cold church and sing hymns like on Songs of Praise. Suddenly I was confronted with normal people who were funny, enjoyed life and weren’t at all odd. They just loved God and attended church every Sunday.
I still resisted though. The fact that I met some people that were normal didn’t change my mind about religion. But I went through some tough times at the end of my working year that got me asking questions. So, when I went back to university and found out that one of my best friends there was actually a Christian too I was very surprised! She invited me on something called an Alpha course that her church was going to be running and I thought “Why not?” I went on it and by the end I thought all my questions had been answered, I asked God for forgiveness and I considered myself a Christian. I got myself a bible and started to pray. The peace that came with this decision was quite remarkable but I still didn’t go to church or really change my ways very much.
Fast forward about a year and I was living in Swindon again and I still wasn’t attending church but my housemate Phil was. He started to run a football game on a Saturday and he would invite various people from his church along and through that I got to know a variety of new Christians.
When it was time for Phil to get baptised I thought I would attend and check it out. I made the decision there and then that no matter how weird it was I would continue to go back week after week. It wasn’t what I was expecting at all. The church was in a renevated warehouse, there were comfy chairs, not pews and the music was modern and kinda cool and not hymny at all!
I still struggled though. I came from a history of science and fact and this “blind faith” that I was working with didn’t suit me at all. It got to the point where I stopped attending church as I was finding it too confusing. Thankfully God was looking out for me and He put an idea in the minds of two people who are now very good friends of mine to invite me over for dinner to get to know me better. I ended up going round to see them every week for months. I would ask them lots of questions about God and religion and sometimes I would get frustrated and other times I must have frustrated them so much. I tried to trip them up and I think I had it in my mind that if I could convince them that they were wrong then I would have my answer. Thankfully I was never successful!
All these discussions were great and really helped but there were just some questions that couldn’t be answered or I wasn’t content with the answers I was given. I needed to know some facts. I am a scientist and I need to know solid facts about this story I was meant to be believing. There were far more than I was expecting to find: Jesus wasn’t just some character in a tale. He actually existed! Also the bible is considered a more reliable document than the writings of Plato and Homer!
So with these new facts at my disposal I was able to come to God and church with a fresh mind and renewed confidence. And the more I trusted in God the more He has blessed me and helped me along. I got baptised in 2007 and despite the occasional hiccup I’m moving on leaps and bounds with God all the time.
It wasn’t easy for me to be a Christian. My head was trying to stop me at every opportunity but in the end it was the facts that convinced me to trust in God with everything. I’m still a work in progress and I think I always will be but I now know I can trust God with everything. I just have to remember to walk in that and continue to grow under His direction.
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